7.

And I'm in so deep,

You know I'm such a fool for you.

You've got me wrapped around your finger.

Do you have to let it linger....

I've seen it all and I know everything. It just sucks to know you've got used by someone you love most. I can't deny I'm very hurt by the fact that you did all these to me and hurt me this much. But I guess in every relationship, there must always be a time for you to let go. 

I knew the two of us wouldn't last but I didn't expect it to end so quickly. I liked you so much, so so so so much. I cried through this relationships more than I've been happy. But I still liked you through it all. From the time you shouted that you loved me before my paper, to the times where you sneaked a peck on me in school. I just love you so much. The thought of you right now is already making me cry, and it is so devastating. I really really liked you. Why did you have to play on me like that. 

Heck, I even wanted to marry you. Why did you push me away like that. Why did you just prove yourself so much like him..

Well it's too late now. She's gonna be very lucky. I'm happy for you. 

"give me a chance to prove to you that xxx wouldn’t happen again"
"Why would things change? I'll make sure it'll never change."
"I have you already and all I want is you."
"I doubt I can live without you"
"I'll never let you go"
"I will cherish you forever"
"all i want to do now is to treasure you,love and treat you til the very best i can"
"Forever and always"
shoelaces
finger opening game

"I love you"

6. crying myself to sleep

goodnight world,

goodnight memory. 

5.

Tonight was one hell of a night and I really wish nothing like this would ever happen again. It was too scary and I hope I wouldn't be able to go through something like this ever again. I'm so traumatized by the screaming, the crying. It was just too scary and I wish I would never ever ever have to experience anything near to it ever again.

Yes, I'm emotional but I guess, this is where it really hits home and where it really hits me - hurts me.

4. Thank you Father.

Today, Magdelyn, we believe God wants you to know that ...

every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: "I love you."

3. Emptiness.

Emptiness lingers. Your hand clasps with mine, when our lips touch, when you hold me in your arms. You.

Distance is bringing us further and further apart, so much so we might not even recognize each other anymore. You've lost feelings for me, and I've only been nothing but a stupid fool whom has had a wishful thinking of you being the one who puts the ring on her. I have always only wanted one thing, and that is for your happiness. But gradually, I've wanted another, and that was to be the reason you have happiness. But I guess, we have to move on from life. We have to learn that not everyone's relationship can end as a happy one. And most certainly, our relationship is no exception.

They say, the key to a happy and long-lasting relationship, apart from the obvious of mutual feelings, is the ability to compromise. Whether you're willing to let go of it all to let the other party have their way. Whether you have the tolerance to allow your loved one to reign over your decision. That's what love is all about.

&, this egoistic girl right here would never be able to have a love like that.

2. Life

It's funny because there's really only a fine line between death and life. There are just so many ways to end our lives. But right in that moment, when we're breathing our last breath, what would be in our minds? Will we be regret-filled or full of guilt? Imagine if we had lived for one more day, we might have been able to save a life, we might have been able to confess something that we have been guilty about for our entire life. Or maybe we might have been able to just tell our loved ones that we love them.

It's funny because so many times, we tell people that we want to end our lives, or that we cannot take it any longer. And in all honesty.. We're all afraid of death. We cut ourselves, eat excessive pills, we tell people that our lives meant nothing. When the truth is, we had meant something to at least one person in some point of our lives. We think it's cool to feign our emotions and tell people that we want to end our lives. When actually, the only thing we want more than anything else is just a little bit more of love, a little bit more of care and a little more attention.

We all crave for the care and concerns of others. If not, why would we want to end our lives? Or rather, why SHOULD we end our lives?

1. Time to move on.

S-anctifiedhearts will still be up but I have decided to create a new blog. I have learnt that I have to let go of some memories that has been haunting and hurting me for a long time now. Way back in 2010. Just like Signthatlove, the blog will be discontinued but still up.

"My dentist once told me that letting go is like pulling a tooth. When it was pulled out, you're relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was not hurting you doesn't mean you did not notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It's going to take a while, but it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you so much pain. Therefore, move on and let go."

xx.