10. Imagination

The comfort you feel when you just read a book, watch a movie and just deeply immerse yourself in to it. You don't ever want to come out of this imaginary realm you are in. You just want to stay away from reality, and belong to another dimension of fantasy. Where life's motto is "do as you please". The ability to change any and every circumstance is all under your own control and all you want to do is just stay that way forever without having someone to dictate your life around. That, is true bliss.

9. Encounter

Just came back from a 3D2N camp at Camp Challenge Sembawang. Through this camp, it really made me realize that when we put God to test, we are actually being faithless. We have to have faith at all times, every time. God knows we have struggles and he knows that Satan tempts us. But when we allow the temptation to even cross our minds for even one second, we are already being trapped by Satan.

We really have to come back to God. One day every knee will bow, every tongue shall confess your name Lord, your name, Jesus.

Hallelujah.

8. Relate

Turning around to leave, 
Full of words but I'm speechless
Don't even want to speak of the breakup.
Birds and Fishes in love are by chance.

Our love,
& the love given
It could have last.
It can no longer come back
Dust in the wind
Waiting
To hurt us.

转身离开 
(你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 
只是一场意外

我们的爱 （给的爱） 
差异一直存在 
(回不来)
凤中尘埃 
(等待)
竟累积成伤害

7.

And I'm in so deep,

You know I'm such a fool for you.

You've got me wrapped around your finger.

Do you have to let it linger....

I've seen it all and I know everything. It just sucks to know you've got used by someone you love most. I can't deny I'm very hurt by the fact that you did all these to me and hurt me this much. But I guess in every relationship, there must always be a time for you to let go. 

I knew the two of us wouldn't last but I didn't expect it to end so quickly. I liked you so much, so so so so much. I cried through this relationships more than I've been happy. But I still liked you through it all. From the time you shouted that you loved me before my paper, to the times where you sneaked a peck on me in school. I just love you so much. The thought of you right now is already making me cry, and it is so devastating. I really really liked you. Why did you have to play on me like that. 

Heck, I even wanted to marry you. Why did you push me away like that. Why did you just prove yourself so much like him..

Well it's too late now. She's gonna be very lucky. I'm happy for you. 

"give me a chance to prove to you that xxx wouldn’t happen again"
"Why would things change? I'll make sure it'll never change."
"I have you already and all I want is you."
"I doubt I can live without you"
"I'll never let you go"
"I will cherish you forever"
"all i want to do now is to treasure you,love and treat you til the very best i can"
"Forever and always"
shoelaces
finger opening game

"I love you"

6. crying myself to sleep

goodnight world,

goodnight memory. 

5.

Tonight was one hell of a night and I really wish nothing like this would ever happen again. It was too scary and I hope I wouldn't be able to go through something like this ever again. I'm so traumatized by the screaming, the crying. It was just too scary and I wish I would never ever ever have to experience anything near to it ever again.

Yes, I'm emotional but I guess, this is where it really hits home and where it really hits me - hurts me.

4. Thank you Father.

Today, Magdelyn, we believe God wants you to know that ...

every little part of you is magical.

Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: "I love you."